Even though Matt Serra hasn’t fought since a 2010 decision loss to Chris Lytle he remains an active member of the UFC roster. While the former welterweight champion has dealt with some injury issues over the span, it seems the real reason he hasn’t seen action in nearly three years has more to do with a lack of interest and limited time between his other obligations.

Serra recently spoke with Newsday where he admitted he was finally coming to terms with his career being all but over. However, the New Yorker still wouldn’t go so far as to say he was 100% done in the ring.

“It’s hard to say it. It’s like you can’t say it, even though it probably is true. I would love to put closure on my career with one last fight at (Madison Square Garden), but at the same time, if that doesn’t happen, I definitely consider myself done,” confessed Serra. “It’s hard to say the ‘R word.’ I might never say the ‘R word.’”

The Ultimate Fighter 4 winner may still be avoiding “retirement” in an official capacity, but he definitely knows the writing is on the wall.

“I really think I’m walking away. I’m going to be 39, I just had my rib taken out. I’m having my third kid. My schools are doing well. What am I doing, looking for another pay day? It’s not really for that. I mean, it doesn’t stink, but it’s not really for that,” explained Serra. “Am I still trying to hold on for the glory? Glory is a drug, dude. I’m telling you, that’s the problem. It really is. I know why guys can’t walk away. I absolutely get it.”

If his bout at MSG never materializes, Serra will end his career with an 11-7 mark including notable wins over Lytle, Yves Edwards, Ivan Menjivar, Frank Trigg, and of course Georges St-Pierre who he knocked out in 2007 to become the welterweight division’s top dog.